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The combination of bipolar disorder and physical illnesse stir up a nasty concoction in me every time. For example, depression and coughing collide while mania and fever slam into each other. Or it could be insomnia butting heads with exhaustion. You know the truth. Bipolar or depression and everything in between are not going to take a vacation when you have laryngitis.
The aftermath from the meeting of the two medical giants will generate lots of money shelled out at the pharmacy and a crick in the neck from sleeping on the couch for too long.
Has this ever happened to you? Yes? Well, you are in good company. I am the Queen of bipolar disorder and physical illness clashes. Based on my experiences, I will give you some suggestions on how I survived the unwelcomed meet-up of the mental and the physical sides.
You can be a Survivor
When I come down with something which rubs against my mental illness symptoms in the wrong way, I usually fight hard against sleeping. I lay awake staring at the ceiling. I flip through the pages of a magazine. I read a book I haven’t touched in months. And of course, I play on my phone.
During this entire time, the psychotropic meds sit defiantly untouched while I lay awake all night. Over the years, I discovered two methods that helped me survive the battle between bipolar disorder and physical illness.
Survivor Skill #1 – Get more sleep
When I feel under the weather, like with a cold, I get so tired that I practically collapse into bed from just laying around doing nothing all day. The truth is we all need sleep! However, not everybody gets the right amount of shut-eye. Below is the most up-to-date sleep data for the United States.
- 50% to 80% of the patients in a regular American psychiatric office are sleep deprived;
- Compare this to the 10% to 18% of adults in the general population who experience sleep deprivation
; and finally - Sleep deprivation costs the US $411 billion annually.
Getting the correct amount of sleep for a mentally and physically well human being, each night is crucial. If you throw in a mental illness as well as the flu into the mix, the stakes go up. A sleep-deprived person (with any type of illness) driving a car is as impaired to get behind the wheel and stomp on the gas as a person who is driving drunk. This is serious stuff!
The bottom line here is to create an environment that will promote healthy sleep. This is what we call good sleep hygiene. It’s important to establish this level of health in order to function properly throughout the day.
Appropriate sleep hygiene means the following:
- Winding down before you get into the bed;
- Having an set bedtime;
- No interruptions during the night;
- Getting enough sleep; and
- Waking up so that you feel rested.
I am still attempting to achieve good consistent sleep hygiene. In the end, sleeping all the hours and minutes my body needs will, at the very least, assist me with decisions.
These decisions could be determined by the following questions: “How many hours of sleep do I need to get?”, or “Should I take my prescribed medications while I am sick with a stomach virus?”
Survivor Skill #2 – Take your psychotropic medicine
Some of us have a tendency to skip our meds whether healthy or sick. I do take my medicine when I am well most of the time. Although when I am physically sick, I often go down kicking and screaming because I do not want to take my regular psychiatric tablets.
Here is what happens: My mind believes that my body’s mental health will carry on if I press pause on taking the remedy for my mental illness symptoms. With each passing hour to each passing day, my mental acuity tends to suffer greatly.
Every day, I experience varying levels of the following: short bouts odepression, psychosis, mania and little to no ability to stay focused to name a few.
If you take the above symptoms and mix them up real good, give the potion an electric shock, then you will have my high alert bipolar symptoms while contending with a fever, mucus, muscle aches, congestion and pains. Then if I stop taking any of my psychotropic medicines please add a triple shot to that espresso.
But the thing is, when I take all of my meds, my depression is more easily handled by usual treatments. The psychosis is still there, but it is back to its old pattern where I can better manage the paranoia and hallucinations. The mania is deflated for now and tucked away in a drawer until another day. And I can focus better than I did when I was not medicated.
Conclusion
I fulfilled my promise to you, my reader. In this blog post, I told you that from my experiences, getting enough sleep and taking my daily meds are the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. These methods are used in order to ease up the time on the sidelines of life as well as the tough symptoms of bipolar and your sinus infection. When I become physically ill while living with a mental illness, it can be a madhouse.
Call to Action
Do you feel a triple dose of your symptoms happening to you whenever you experience mental illness episodes and physical sickness? Please share how you got through that flu, stomach bug, sinus infection or cold. You can either write a comment in the section below or send an email to me at [email protected].
References
References will be given upon individual requests.
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]]>I excitedly began scrolling through chose best bipolar disorder blogs. There was the bipolar blog from Psych Central. The psychcentral.com has a specific blog that I contribute to called Mental Health Discoveries.
Health Line’s 2018 Best Bipolar Blogs Award to Life Conquering
Scroll, scroll, scroll. Oh my goodness! The first thing I saw was the Life Conquering logo on the left then a marvelous write-up of my blog on the right. I did a double take. I was so excited! I am just super honored to be on the Best Bipolar Disorder Blogs list. My passion, hard work and patience have paid off.
Life Conquering a Mental Health Organization and Blog
The award is displayed on the landing/front page of the Life Conquering Blog. Scroll down to the end of the page and you will see all of my blog awards.
2018 Best Blogs – Bipolar Disorder
Blog award dedicated to a Father and a Veteran
This weekend is perfect to dedicate this award to my late father, Don Pierce. He was diagnosed with a mental illness called PTSD after serving in the Vietnam War as a Military Police officer.
Vietnam Soldiers War Memorial
I miss our times on the back deck talking about the latest in politics, cranking up the 70’s music station and asking questions about his tour in Vietnam. My dad did not die in combat. However, he died due to a combat-related medical issue. I miss him. I wish he were here on my tough days when I feel alone and the bipolar is overwhelming me. I know he would not mind me leaning on him for strength. Dad always had great advice.
I will see him real soon in Heaven which takes the sting out of the missing part of his absence in my life. That makes me smile.
Scripture references to know you are saved
Romans 10:9, which says, “If you confess with your mouth, ‘Jesus is Lord,’ and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”
Ephesians 2:8, which says, “It is by grace you have been saved, through faith.”
References
https://www.christianitytoday.com/iyf/advice/faithdoubt/how-can-i-be-sure-im-saved.html
https://www.healthline.com/health/bipolar-disorder/best-blogs-of-the-year#8
PTSD, Veterans and VA Funding Service Dogs Go together like Cats and Dogs
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Have you ever noticed strange mental health or even physical symptoms that begin without any reason? What do you do? Shrug it off and pretend it was never there or be proactive and do something about it? Below are suggestions as to what you should do if you think you might have a mental illness. The first thing is deciding between a therapist and a psychologist.
therapist and a psychologist
Do not be afraid of change
When I finally realized there was something wrong with me, I went straight to the people I knew I could trust. Over the nearly 11 years that I have been diagnosed having bipolar disorder, I am on my fifth psychiatrist. Now, I am seeing a psychologist after two therapists and a counselor.
Please be honest with yourself. Listen to what the provider has to say and then research, research, research. I was researching all the time and still are just to know my illness better and to see what needed to be done about it medically and therapeutically,
Now researching is not a way of elevating yourself over your doctor, therapist or psychologist. It is a tool for you to be more informed.
Preparing for the first visit
- I would write down a list of your strange symptoms, while they are fresh in your memory. Include dates as well as times, special events, life-altering situations (death, baby born, loss of job, divorce, going back to school, new house).
- Get as much information as you can about the mental health of family members. Go as far back as you can. I found out ta few years ago hat I have a family member on my dad’s side who had bipolar. He also committed suicide.
- If you have family and good friends or even close co-workers, ask them if they can shed light onto your situation. How are you different? Personality? Behavior?
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- Time to make the appointment with a therapist or psychologist.
- If you are unsure of which provider to choose (therapist or psychologist), take a look at the link above titled, What is the difference between a therapist and a psychologist? That link will explain the difference between the two as well as the pros and cons of each.
Each therapist and psychologist have their own methods as well as their obvious differences. You may be unsure of which provider to go to. Go to the link at the top of this page that will take you to a site to help you chose.
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Here are 17 facts that prove mental illnesses are more prevalent in out society then we might have thought. It is important for you to know and realize that mental illness is unfortunately growing. As the science behind mental illness recovery and the medicines that are prescribed, more of the mentally ill will have the confidence to hold down a job; worship outside of their home; travel; have children; in other words, have an actual life.
17 mental illness facts
1. 61,500,000
The number of Americans who will experience a mental illness during any given year.
2. $100,000,000,000
The economic strain on our country due to the untreated individuals with a mental illness.
untreated mental health
3. 70 – 90%
This is the percentage of individuals who are mentally ill who improved with some sort of therapy.
4. 800,000
The number of individuals who die by suicide globally.
5. 25%
This is the percentage of mentally ill individuals who feel that others are compassionate or understanding to the mentally ill.
compassion and understanding
6. 350,000,000
The amount of people worldwide affected by depression.
7. 79%
The percentage of all U.S. suicides carried out by men.
8. 40,000,000
The adults in America who suffer from anxiety disorders.
anxiety
9. 7.5%
The amount of college students who reported feeling depressed to the point where it negatively impacted their ability to function.
10. 22
According to a 2013 report by the DVA, this is the underestimated number of veterans who died by suicide each day.
veteran suicides
11. 10%
The percentage of children and adolescents who were disrupted in their day-to-day lives by a mental and emotional disorder.
12. 3,500,000
The figure of Americans who suffer from schizophrenia.
schizophrenia
13. 60%
The percentage of adults who didn’t receive mental health assistance in 2012.
14. 6,100,000
This is the number of bipolars who live in the U.S.
bipolar
15. 21%
“The percentage of mothers polled in a recent Baby Center survey who stated they have been diagnosed with postpartum depression. Approximately 40 percent of them did not seek medical treatment.”
16. 5,200,000
The post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) adults who suffer with this disorder in a given year.
PTSD
17. 7
“The number of people who die by suicide per hour in the Americas.”
References
https://www.huffingtonpost.com/2014/12/01/mental-illness-statistics_n_6193660.html
http://www.worldbipolarday.org/
If you are contemplating hurting yourself, click on this.
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World Bipolar Day 2018
Life Conquering Blog for Mental Health is aligned with WBD’s mission. Life Conquering uses a blog and other social media sites to encourage people with a mental illness and to educate those without in order to tear down stigmas. If you have not stopped by Life Conquering Blog, here is the address: https://lifeconquering.org/.
I encourage all Life Conquering Blog followers as well as frequent visitors to participate in the celebration of World Bipolar Day 2018. You may or may not know someone with bipolar. Take this next week leading up to WBD to brainstorm ideas how you can make someone with bipolar be comfortable in their own skin and feel accepted in their environment. Then again, you might have bipolar. Think of some ways you could thank someone who has stood by your side and show them your appreciation.
World Bipolar Day 2018
Once you brainstorm some ideas, email me at lifeconquering@gmail.com and share with me your thoughts. But don’t just think of something and not do it. Step out of your comfort zone and MAKE A CHANGE FOR GOOD!
Below are some websites and blogs that you can share with your friends, family and co-workers.
References
http://www.worldbipolarday.org/
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The bipolar and narcolepsy are like blazing infernos which keep me from making it to the pinnacle of all good sleepers: to obtain good sleep hygiene. Things like bipolar anxiety and bipolar depression either keep me awake the majority of the night or toss and turn while sleep eludes me like a bluegill effortlessly escaping from the fisherman’s aptly baited hook.
Where do you fall asleep?
Narcolepsy is a condition where you will almost immediately go to sleep when in a relaxed environment – anywhere. You know, the board room meeting with the nice leather chairs and cool air surrounding you like rain on a cool spring day (zzzzzzzz); the hot new movie you have been planning on seeing since last year (zzzzzzzz); sitting in your car at a long stop light (zzzzzzzz); waiting for your coffee and danish while sitting at the coffee shop in those over-sized chairs (zzzzzzzz); or sitting on beach chairs at your child’s baseball game (zzzzzzzz).
Sleeping at the coffee shop
I, personally, fall asleep at the drop of a hat just about A-N-Y-W-H-E-R-E. During graduation; at the movie theater; on a date, during a long phone conversation, the hair salon, weddings, funerals, football and basketball games.
The results of having zero good sleep hygiene
I am unable to function properly if I do not have this treasure of mine which is more precious to me than gold. For instance, if I stay awake past my bed time, I will feel that next morning as if a heavy weight has been attached to my eyelids. YAWN all day. Due to missing sleep, extreme tiredness and no motivation, it is like a domino affect. I will skip working out. Make poor choices for breakfast. I will be unable to practice any personal hygiene. Why? Because it is too damn hard! I will fall asleep at my laptop while the daily news repeats, repeats, repeats. No creativity for me!
yawning all day
The solution I was taught in a med-check session with my psychiatrist has helped me cope more times than I can count with my sleep problems. In the next blog, I can show how you can get more sleep, feel rested when you wake up in the morning, stay awake throughout the day and learn how to go to sleep at the right time. Sounds good to you? Sounds like my cup of Sleepytime Herbal Tea.
References
https://sleepfoundation.org/sleep-disorders-problems/narcolepsy-and-sleep
https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/bipolar-disorder/symptoms-causes/syc-20355955
https://sleepfoundation.org/sleep-topics/sleep-hygiene
http://www.sleepeducation.org/essentials-in-sleep/healthy-sleep-habits
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]]>Step out when you are ready to encourage others with your story. Reach out to safe places such as the local chapter of the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance in your hometown or state. There you can share your journey with mental illness.
12 Bipolar GIF’s
- My moods cannot be controlled as if scheduling them on a calendar.
Oh, how I wish I could control my moods that way! I will never be depressed in the morning or the afternoon or evening. Or when it is raining. Or when my husband goes to work. My racing thoughts would shut up when I go to bed, get a massage or get a shower or bubble bath. I will have just the right amount of mania to help me tackle the cleaning. Or to have it when I am at the grocery store so I can get out of there fast.
You get what you get. Manic, hypomanic or depressed.
Bipolar is a brain disorder, too. I am incapable of stopping or starting the bipolar roller coaster that is going on inside my head. The chemicals in my brain fire or do not fire due to bipolar. I take medicine to help push or pull my brain in the right direction so I can function.
2. This is a pretty good illustration of my bipolar moods every day. 
It is rare that I would go a day without my moods shifting in any direction. As you see in the cell phone GIF, this represents just how quickly my moods can change.
Just recently, I spoke with a woman who has bipolar, too. She was explaining how long she goes between episodes. “Wow! Good for her!” I thought. For me,I have ultradian cycling most of the day or mixed episodes. This basically means my moods change a bunch.
3. This is what it looks like in my mind during a manic episode. I am 
constantly thinking and talking to myself. The ideas are coming in like a meteor shower. I feel alive. Excited. I can climb Mt. Everest by myself. I am signing up for all kinds of opportunities without any time to dedicate to them. Buying all kinds of shoes and purses. And talking to people who I have been avoiding for months.
4. Sometimes, I act out at the grocery store when I am manic-y with rage. It does’t take much. I may be standing in a mile-long line, the person in front of me is not going fast enough, the item I want to purchase is not available or the aisle I want to enter has a shopping cart jam. Sometimes words actually come out. In the state of mood I am in, I do not care it I am heard. And sometimes they are all trapped in my mind, unable to scream out due to prayer. Yes! Prayer. Needless to say, I do a lot of praying while at the grocery. .
5. This is me when my thoughts flow easily and are also coherent and organized when I am writing. They basically make sense, I am creative with boundless energy. I can stay up all night writing. I feel young again. I am a writing scholar. Dreams and delusions flood my mind about the present and the future. 
6. This describes the sum of the various parts of my mind and body when I am in an ultradian cycle. I tend to flip-flop between each pole. The frequency of which the moods change could happen in months, years, weeks, days or hours. I have managed to switch from depression to mania in mere seconds multiple times. Tears falling from my eyes,staining my cheeks. At the same time, I am laughing like I’m mad. It scared the shit out of my husband. Now that says a lot, because he is a real tough guy.
7. This is when I cannot write PERIOD. I cannot form sentences, paragraphs – not to mention thoughts or ideas! This is happening a great deal lately. I started drafts of about six or more blog posts from the beginning of February up until now. NONE of the drafts have been completed and published. Today, I was depressed most of the day and it has taken me all day long to work on a post. It still will not be finished in time to publish. The depression always stunts the growth of the creativity. 
8. When I have a bipolar road rage moment, I sound my horn, loudly and proudly. That is really as far as it goes in the real world. Now I might drive more aggressively to my destination, let the incident stew in my head and even tell my husband with grandeur what happened once he gets home from work. I’m so glad brains are private and horns are loud. 
9. This is me when I am in a mixed episode. During a mixed episode, you experience both mania and depression at the same time. Whenever I am mixed, I cannot make up my mind what I want to do because both poles are tugging at me What I usually do in a mixed state is just sit there and stare into nothing. 
10. This is my psychotic brain everyday. Hallucinations in all five senses. 
Delusions that never go away. Paranoid in my own house and outside my house. I do not like going to bed for fear of what will be done to me. And I had a psychotic break.
11. GIF’s of people who have bipolar. They look just like all the other people around them. They are moms, dads, brothers, sisters, painters, teachers, doctors, chefs, actresses, pastors, secretaries, judges, counselors, you name it.
Carrie Fisher
Bradley Cooper
Delonte West
Ernest Hemmingway
Amy Winehouse
Catherine Zeta-Jones
References
https://giphy.com/explore/bipolar-happiness
https://giphy.com/search/bipolar-road-rage
https://giphy.com/search/bipolar-laptop-rage
https://giphy.com/search/bipolar-psychotic
https://giphy.com/explore/carrie-fisher
https://giphy.com/search/bipolar
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]]>When I first started, the side effects were few if any. Many of the items on the list were symptoms I have with my other medications and from the illness itself. For instance these are a few of the side effects you might experience while on Adderall: anxiety, headache; weakness, dizziness, a terrible taste in your mouth, diarrhea, constipation, nausea and hair falling out. This list is just the tip of the ice burg.
This stimulant has revolutionized my life. Between the narcolepsy, AD/HD and the bipolar, I was going out of my mind mad! Once I got the Adderall in my system, the sleeping and the attention issues faded away. My energy can be amazing, too! However, I did learn that I could not rely solely on the pill I swallowed everyday four times a day.
I had moments when I was like a zombie. I started again to fall asleep at inappropriate or dangerous times. I knew I needed the Adderall and understood that the medicine and my behavior should work together for optimal satisfaction. This culminated to shine a light on my poor sleep hygiene habits. The medicine’s poor performance pointed to the facts that I was not getting enough sleep at night. And I might need to rethink when I should take my medicine during the day.
Likewise, I would get a few minor glitches with the AD/HD. As an example, not being able to have an attention span greater than a gnat. I want to scream “this is taking me increasingly more time to write anything!” I cannot stay focused and the results are cutting about half of the first draft because I have so much crap in the article/post that it makes no sense.
Writing and editing is getting more and more difficult to do
For me to be a successful writer, I need to be awake, focused and have my whits about me. When I write, I do so with as much time that I can to squeeze every second out of the day.
For me, the outside distractions are minimal. It is my internal distractions that wreak havoc on my writing. I may have a sick dog and another dog to tend to. Laundry. Phone calls. Then the bipolar and the other mental health issues that come along for a ride are ready to muck up the waters.
Then it starts. I have brain freeze, next a starring contest with my monitor, I can’t figure out a title or the subject, don’t forget wasting time on writing something that does not fit in the first place, I lose interest once I get frustrated and I am not being productive, forgetting that one word that would be perfect, and…inability to spell. YES! SPELL! Then I look at the clock and I react:
“Now it is quarter-to-one?!”
“All I want to do is take a nap.”
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References
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Adderall
http://www.alaskasleep.com/blog/narcolepsy-definition-symptoms-causes-treatment
https://www.healthline.com/health/what-is-a-pulmonologist
https://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorders/diagnosing-narcolepsy
http://www.alaskasleep.com/blog/what-is-a-polysomnogram-test
http://www.efpa.be/psychologist-psychiatrist.htm
https://www.rxlist.com/adderall-side-effects-drug-center.htm
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Unmotivated bipolar – what it looks like
It never fails, I get excited about a little project I want to accomplish, then somebody or something throws the brake release and I come to a dead stop. You need to realize that people with this symptom feel horrible. I mean dirt off a tin can in the sewer horrible. The body is encased in concrete from head to toe. It hurts to move. Actually they can’t move in most situations. All I ever want to do is stare at a wall or out the window for hours unending. I want to cry. I want to cut myself. I want to cuss somebody out. I want to hit a punching bag.
Decisions
At this juncture, I can either pick myself off the floor and fight tooth and nail against unmotivated bipolar. Or I can just sit back like the beagle seen here. Chillin’ out and waiting for the sun to rise on the horizon. This too shall pass. I have made both decisions. I had my reasons. But I have chosen to get on the couch and stare more times then I care to admit.
How can you help?
Yes, you can help. I challenge you to be a proactive friend. If your mentally ill co-worker is having motivation issues at work, then try out the following.
- Be a listening ear. The last thing they want is someone yammering in their ear about kids, work, finances, blah-blah-blah. Now I do not mean to paint bipolars as self-centered friends. The truth of the matter, the majority of this world does not know how to talk to an unmotivated bipolar, or to someone with depression, or PTSD, or AD/HD, bipolar, schizophrenia. You catch my drift?
- Do not draw attention to your friend. They are already hurting enough. If they want to do something, go to a quiet dinner or coffee shop or bookstore and enjoy each others company.
- Do not kid with them or scold them for not being productive. Listen, we really do want to be productive. Honestly. The chemicals in our brain are working against us.
- Get a bead on your friend whether or not they want encouragement. Usually, I just want to be left alone.
- Snoopy is correct when he says he is the victim. When your brain chemistry is f*cked up like ours, It is like somebody has come in and flooded my brain with radiator fluid. Just be a friend.
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In my research, I was completely shocked at how far the door swung in one particular direction from so-called “fact based” organizations.
- “Mental Illness is not an Excuse to be an Asshole” Psychology Today
- “Stop Equating Mental Illness and Bad Behavior” National Association for Mental Illness Rhode Island
- “Is Mental Illness an Excuse for Bad Behavior?” HealthyPlace
- “Mental Illness or Personality Traits?: The Roots of “Bad” Behavior in Your Partner” PsychCentral
- “When is Mental Illness Just an Excuse for Bad Behavior” Kings River Life
In my experience as a bipolar 1 as well as having friends with or without a known mental illness, each mental illness publication listed here is stigmatizing the mental illness community except HealthyPlace.
The bad
During my travels with bipolar, I have done a whole slew of things that caused pain, embarrassment, loss of integrity and much more. The one manic symptom that I go to is risky behavior. Right smack dab in the middle of the mania, I am on a high like none other. I can seriously sit here and say when I embarked on those risky behaviors, I was not in my right mind.
bipolar an excuse
If you have ever felt depressed, you understand when I say “I was in a deep pit”. “I could not get out of the pit.” “No manner of encouragement of the sincerest interest could get me out.” If you suffer from depression, you have been there when you were unable to speak at work; unable to focus on the dinner party you planned; so full of anxiety that you cannot leave your desk at work even to go to the breakroom
I have had mean thoughts. The voices in my head have told me mean and hurtful things. Somethings I have acted on while others just slipped out my left ear. I have also had inappropriate thoughts and acted on them. The risky behaviors were alluring and I did not mind participating.
The good
I know what you must be thinking. She is just delusional and dead wrong about bipolar behavior. The activities I mentioned are all just bad behavior therefor I must be a bad person.
But what you do not know about me is that those behaviors did not describe me some 25 years ago. If you were to speak to anybody in my past (meaning eight-teen and younger), the people that I saw in school who were just acquaintances I knew back then would be more than surprised. Shocked. Dumbfounded. Disbelieving. Astonished. Stunned. Stupefied. These behaviors did not describe the person I was in middle school and high school.
I believe the only person who knew me back then (at least what I dared to share) was my best friend from elementary school, Beth Patterson.
You see, before the bipolar picked up steam and started to show itself in public, I was quiet and shy. Kept to myself. Didn’t speak much. Almost awkward in my own skin. Felt inadequate. Then the bipolar exploded into my life in my twenties (the good with the bad).
behavior an excuse
- From shy to loud. And I mean very loud. When I laugh, people can hear me in the next county.
- From withdrawn to open. This was my catalyst in me meeting all the men I was eventually with.
- From not talkative to talking a bunch and VERY fast. One time I heard what I sounded like on my husband’s voicemail. I was talking so fast that I was incomprehensible. Sometimes I have no idea I am doing it.
- From awkward to self-assured.
- From inadequate to unstoppable.
grace
So, is bipolar an excuse for bad behavior?
I believe if the person is actively in a bipolar episode and they act out and it is not their regular behavior, then yes. If the person is outside a bipolar episode and is not being affected by previous episodes, then I don’t think so.
The bottom line is, there has to be grace for the bipolar person in order to answer the question “Is bipolar an excuse?” in the affirmative. None of us are perfect. We all have our faults. Bipolar is a mood disorder. However, that makes it sound like child’s play, doesn’t it? It’s not. It is a cobra ready to strike.
References
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/panic-life/201412/mental-illness-is-not-excuse-be-asshole
https://namirhodeisland.org/stop-equating-mental-illness-bad-behavior/
https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2012/07/is-mental-illness-excuse-bad-behavior/
https://blogs.psychcentral.com/wellness/2011/05/mental-illness-or-personality-traits/
http://kingsriverlife.com/10/08/when-is-mental-illness-just-an-excuse-for-bad-behavior/
Going Further
https://lifeconquering.org/bipolar-1-episode/
https://lifeconquering.org/ultra-rapid-cycling-bipolar/
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