Another Christmas and New Years is marked off on the calendar, but the depression lingers on. Some of us are exhausted from all the Christmas shopping, food preparations and holiday decorating. At the same time, others are satisfied with another successful Christmas. The New Year rang in and now it’s time to get back to work. Still there are others who have lingering depression that comes with this supposed MERRY season.
Depression wears many hats
Putting up ornaments, tinsel and poinsettias, placing them in their red and green storage bins can be overwhelming. All I decided to decorate this past Christmas was a mantel. I used six individual decorations from my Christmas decor collection. It was still exhausting to pack it all up in a boot box. Even more tiring was the trip up one flight of stairs and into a closet. Depression. Leaves you drained of motivation.
I have spent many Christmases and New Years flooded with memories which spark depression. I feel like Ebeneezer Scrooge sorting through his past with one of the Christmas spirits. The older I get, the more bad memories seem to pile up. Depression. Pushes your head into the slop of self-pity.
Another Christmas and New Years comes and goes with a flood of depression. The scale is screaming. My pants are splitting. I loathe how I look and wish for a new body for next Christmas. Depression. Turns me against myself to a distorted image in the mind of someone with an eating disorder. Instead of being proactive, I am reactive.
Do I wallow in depression or pick myself up again and again and again and again
- The good thing is that Christmas is over, now. The party dress and hats have been put away until next year. You can breathe a sigh of relief. No more family obligations. No more tempting food to fight against. No more embarrassing work place parties.
- As we turn the calendar to a new month and a new year, we can put those painful memories of Christmas’s past in a crackling fire where they will turn to ash. The important thing about what is next, is a clear head from all the bad junk and baggage from the holiday and the year that is just retiring.
- A new year is here. What is next? Open up your mind to the infinite possibilites that lie ahead. So many exciting adventures yet to be experienced. We get to start over afresh at the beginning of each year.
- I encourage you to try setting a few goals for yourself. Goal setting is a great way to focus your energies on the things you feel are important. Start small with two or three at the most so you have a greater chance to succeed. You can always add more goals later.
- Do your best to look forward to a new year. There may be some uncertainties in the upcoming year. But, you have a blank canvas- ready to fill with your own brush strokes. You have a say in where your life goes. What is next? Do you want to sign up for an adult ed class? Do you want to learn how to ski? Do you want to learn how to bake? Do you want to start a savings account or an investment fund? Do you want to rebuild a car? It is up to you whether your dreams will come true or turn to ash.
So what is next, you say? To stay strong. Be ready to fight the depression anytime or anywhere. Leave the past in the past even if it was just two hours ago. Get help when you need it. Stay connected with friends and family. I pray that you will not let the depression from the holiday shadows get the best of you.